I am both amused and annoyed that you think I should be less stubborn than you are

isnt it funny how things never turn out the way you want it to or expect it to? how my best friends in 2006 turned out to be complete strangers and how a complete stranger turned out to be my best friend ever. life is just weird like that isnt it?

isnt it funny how everything can change just like that without us even realising it? how everything suddenly just changes direction and there's nothing you can do about it...

isnt it funny how someone can just change your life completely?

like how a simple wave of acknowledgement or simple exchange of words can affect your entire day.
how a tap on the shoulder can make you feel safe and reassured because you know people are there for you.
how even a little smile across the classroom can make you smile all day like an idiot.
and the fact that they can make you laugh even when you're having the absolute worst day ever.

then just like that, everything starts falling into place. a daily cycle or routine you've come to accept and live with.

isnt it funny how some tiny trivial unimportant thing can make you think of other things that arent even minutely related to the first topic at all?

like how you stare at some people just imagining what they could possibly be thinking of. then you start wondering if someone else out there was having the exact same thought as you at that precise moment, and then finally, 10 minutes later, you wonder what you were even thinking of in teh first place.

isnt it funny how you can watch someone for hours and hours and never get bored. just because?

like how you can stare at people just thinking. who are they really? do they even do the same things as you? what do they think about? do they see the world the same way as you? do they think clouds are little cottonballs that tell stories? anything. then, you imagine what they would say if they were put into any situation. what their lives are like. what they act like. everything. and befor eyou know it, more than 15 minutes have past and you've just wasted that part of your life away. thinking. and you're still stuck here at the same page wondering why you even started thinking abotu something like that in the first place cause you dont even know them.

isnt it funny how we can just arrive at some point and realise that we've been wrong all along and that you've never really understood anything. making things up as it goes. and then you know, you're just going to make it worse.but that's life. shit happens. but it can still get better.

isn't it funny how you can just arrive at some conclusion and feel different from before you started thinking. all it takes is just a few minutes.

it's amusing. really.

and you know what, i am deciding right now that i probably won't grow up to become a motivationist. this i have concluded as all i had to do was sit and think for a while and now suddenly i'm very depressed.